Over the past week, I have been in one of my deepest, darkest depressions. I have been so low and unmotivated that I was not able to participate in my own blog. I need to challenge so many of my beliefs when I am in this darkness. Feelings of unworthiness, hopelessness, and despair. Instead of telling myself what a loser I am, I need to reframe that and tell myself that I am an individual who lives with mental illness and that some periods of time will be hard. My anxiety is tremendous. I walk around with tension in my shoulders, hands, and stomach and the worst physical sensation is that I feel like someone is actually choking me. Past experience teaches me that I can admit I am in crisis and make sure that my doc, therapist, and support system understand that I need extra help right now. I also know that there are things I can do to help myself.
My symptoms of anxiety and depression:
Very low mood
Feelings of worthlessness and hopelessness.
Experiencing suicidal ideation.
The physical feeling of being choked.
Copious amounts of anger, fear, and shame.
Sleeping too much.
Things I can do to help myself:
Stay in contact with my support network, both professionals and family and friends.
Get outside, and take a walk.
Continuously work on using a gentle, patient, and kind voice in my mind.
Pray and meditate.
Practicing self-care can help to boost my mood, even if just a little bit.
Take good care,
"We let go of the burdens that were never ours to carry." -- Unknown