I am still dealing with a bipolar mixed episode, currently facing a depressive mood. I have accepted the idea that I will most likely always be on medication. I have probably been on one hundred different combinations of mood stabilizers, antidepressants, and antipsychotics in the twenty years that I have been actively combatting this disorder. My psychiatrist recently took me off one mood stabilizer and is now titrating up on another mood stabilizer. The depression colors everything in gray or black so at first, I felt as though I did not care, was feeling numb to the idea of trying something else. And now today comes the familiar hope that this combination will be one where I can reach significant stability. As long as I am battling this mood disorder I will try to continue searching for different medication combinations and tools to help me live with mental illness.
Take good care,
Christine
Them: What do you do for a living?
Me: My best, I do my best. -- Unknown