I have been experiencing a long mood episode. It started with depression in January and bounced back and forth between depression and hypomania for the last eight months. Currently, I am experiencing depression and I've felt so down, with tears all the time and no energy to keep up with daily tasks. I've been away from this blog for over a week because I just could not get myself to participate. Today I am feeling less sad, have fewer tears, and am motivated to get some things done. In the last eight months, my doctor has worked with me by changing doses of current medications and adding new ones. The depression still lingers. Tomorrow I am starting an IOP (Intensive Outpatient) program. Nothing changes if nothing changes. Over the course of the last eight months, I have experienced little stability, a few days here and there. I am hoping to pick up some coping skills from the groups. And ways to stop the incessant negative self-talk that is with me constantly when I am alone. I am willing to put time and money into my recovery.
Take good care,
"If you do not love yourself totally, wholly, and fully, somewhere along the way you have learned not to. You can unlearn it. Start being kind to yourself now."
-- Louise Hay