I have created a large support network of my sisters and friends. I am blessed and grateful for each of these relationships. These people support me without judgment, especially during trying times with my mental illness. I have experienced a few important relationships that didn't last in part or in whole due to my mental health issues.
My marriage ended when I was hospitalized for my worst depression. I had suicidal ideation and I also devised a plan. My husband at the time was understandably extremely distressed. We had been together for twenty-one years and about half that time I had numerous hospitalizations, going to the hospital about two times a year. The stress my mental health put on our marriage was extreme. Instead of coming together during the rough times, we grew apart. We eventually got a divorce. Today we have a great relationship. We are good friends that support one another and this contributes to the two of us parenting our two sons cohesively.
I also experienced the loss of my relationship with my brother. He too couldn't understand my darkest symptom of suicidal ideation. A lack of compassion and empathy lead to the destruction of our relationship. He was so caustic, emotionally abusive to me that I needed to end our relationship for my mental well-being. We haven't spoken in over two years.
Although I've needed to let go of some relationships I am lucky to have so many more healthy, supportive friends and family.
Take good care,
Christine
So often I have listened to everyone else's truth and tried to make it mine.
-- Liane Cordes