I am experiencing hypomania for the last several days. It feels great to be positive and hopeful. Hypomania can turn into mania at any time so I need to be aware of my moods. It can also become depressed tomorrow or even later on today. This is what a mixed episode looks like for me. On a scale of one to ten, one being the worsts depression, five being stable and ten the worst of mania, I am now feeling as if I am an eight. The mood is great! I feel so good. But I am also experiencing racy thoughts, and decreased appetite, and I'm going and going, writing and busy work. This hypomanic mood can transform without notice into a scary place in mania, a deep depression, and in my case, into psychosis and paranoia. So I will continue my medication schedule, keep good sleep hygiene and talk to my therapist and, if necessary, to my doctor. Part of this stinks that I need to question a good mood, that it may be harming me. Hopefully, I can be brought down to a manageable more stable mood.
Take good care,
Christine
"Trust thyself: every heart vibrates to that inner string." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson