Today I started the third adjustment to my medication, an increase in the amount of Lamictal. This mixed episode has continued to rule my mood. My thoughts are constantly racy even during depression. This symptom of runaway, incessant thinking is typically a sign of hypomania and mania. But during a mixed episode, the symptoms of both mania and depression are jumbled together.
I am keeping my relationships with my psychiatrist and therapist close. While I am attending an Intensive Outpatient Program (IOP) I switched to the doctor and therapist provided by the program. I am currently interviewing new therapists to find the one where I feel the most safe within the relationship. It requires research, awareness, and patience when looking to change therapists.
I have an amazing support network of sisters and close friends. One of the keys for me to try and achieve stability is trying to do the next right thing, putting one foot in front of the other. Move a muscle, change a thought. I try to keep things in the day, or even the moment.
Take good care,
Christine
To render ourselves insensible to pain we must forfeit also the possibility of happiness. --Sir John Lubbock